Change...you can't avoid it. Things are always changing. Life is always changing.
Over a week ago I experienced change. I traded the life in Jerusalem full of sunshine, clear skies, mango's and figs, for the cloudy fall days of Pennsylvania, where apples, and pumpkin spice season is in full swing! I stepped into a different world when I stepped off that plane. A world that is so familiar, and feels like 'home' but is so different then what 'home' has been the last couple months. Familiar....but soo different! Change.
Change can at times be really hard to process, especially when its unexpected, and your whole mindset needs to be readjusted.
Last summer after what felt like a string of change happened Dad asked how I was doing.
"Okay! The only thing that is certain in life....besides God, is that nothing is certain!" I stated with a smile.
*Sigh* " Life is a crazy ride...hang on its gonna be good!"
And with that we smiled, and life kept right on moving!
In the months following that conversation, life was a crazy ride. And that crazy ride...hasn't changed!
A week ago with suitcase sprawled out over my bed, I contemplated what the next few months would hold. The last week has been nothing like what I had anticipated or planned. At times I've felt soo torn I just wanted someone to PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO, and put me out of my misery!
For those of you that were aware of my dilemma and were an encouragement and a listening ear....Thank you! Your time that you took to listen has meant the world to me!
So as of this afternoon, I will not be going back to Israel....at least not in the next year :)!
This decision has nothing to do with any of my Israel family! They have been a huge blessing in my life and I have learned so much from them. And I know that I will greatly miss interacting and being a 'family' with them! All that I will say on this blog is that after some events, and a lot of time talking with my parents and time spent in prayer, I do not have peace about returning to the Middle East. If you would like more details or want to know how I came to that decision I would be glad to answer your questions in person. But I don't feel that a detailed explanation is necessary on here.
Writing this out feels so weird! I feel like I have been given a huge gift and opportunity that has been cut short! I do not regret any of the experiences I had, or things that I learned while in Israel. I will forever be grateful for the gift and opportunity that was placed in my lap!
Over a week ago I experienced change. I traded the life in Jerusalem full of sunshine, clear skies, mango's and figs, for the cloudy fall days of Pennsylvania, where apples, and pumpkin spice season is in full swing! I stepped into a different world when I stepped off that plane. A world that is so familiar, and feels like 'home' but is so different then what 'home' has been the last couple months. Familiar....but soo different! Change.
Change can at times be really hard to process, especially when its unexpected, and your whole mindset needs to be readjusted.
Last summer after what felt like a string of change happened Dad asked how I was doing.
"Okay! The only thing that is certain in life....besides God, is that nothing is certain!" I stated with a smile.
*Sigh* " Life is a crazy ride...hang on its gonna be good!"
And with that we smiled, and life kept right on moving!
In the months following that conversation, life was a crazy ride. And that crazy ride...hasn't changed!
A week ago with suitcase sprawled out over my bed, I contemplated what the next few months would hold. The last week has been nothing like what I had anticipated or planned. At times I've felt soo torn I just wanted someone to PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO, and put me out of my misery!
For those of you that were aware of my dilemma and were an encouragement and a listening ear....Thank you! Your time that you took to listen has meant the world to me!
So as of this afternoon, I will not be going back to Israel....at least not in the next year :)!
This decision has nothing to do with any of my Israel family! They have been a huge blessing in my life and I have learned so much from them. And I know that I will greatly miss interacting and being a 'family' with them! All that I will say on this blog is that after some events, and a lot of time talking with my parents and time spent in prayer, I do not have peace about returning to the Middle East. If you would like more details or want to know how I came to that decision I would be glad to answer your questions in person. But I don't feel that a detailed explanation is necessary on here.
Writing this out feels so weird! I feel like I have been given a huge gift and opportunity that has been cut short! I do not regret any of the experiences I had, or things that I learned while in Israel. I will forever be grateful for the gift and opportunity that was placed in my lap!
Thanks again for the overwhelming encouragement and support that I have received!!!
This song has been running through my head the last couple days, as I process, and come to grips with the change around me!
You brought me this far so why would I question You now
You have provided so why would I start to doubt
I've never been stranded, abandoned or left here to fight alone
So I'm giving You control
I lift my life, lift my life up
I give it all in surrender
I lift my heart, lift my heart up
You can have it forever
All my dreams, all my plans
Lord I leave it in Your hands
I lift my life, lift my life up
Have Your way in me
Have Your way in me
If peace is a river then let it sweep over me
If I'm under fire I know it's refining me
When I hear You calling out I follow now wherever the road may go
I know You're leading me home
~ Unspoken
Beautifully put. Praying for you.
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