Sooo Full!

 

"Wherever you are, be all there. Live to the hilt every situation you believe to be the will of God."

J.E.

 

 

 

 

The other day we were talking about how my 3 months is half over. Bob looked up at me bewildered and asked, "Why are you leaving? Are you going to come back?"

The only answer I can give him is hopefully. Because honestly....I don't have a clue.

 

Thinking about time and the future that is full of unknowns has changed my focus a little bit. Living in the here and now is often spoken about in a bad way. I think living in the here and now can be a good thing. In fact I know I need to do more of it in my life. That's where my mind has been lately. Focusing on the here and now. Squeezing as much joy out of the present moment, and not wasting time looking forward to the 'next thing'. Because I'm in the here and now. Because today is a gift, that will soon be gone, and will be no more then a memory. I waste so much of my time looking forward to the future, that when I get there I either am still looking forward to the next best thing, or I'm looking back wishing I was still in the past. I don't want to live in the past or the future, I want to live fully in the here and now. I want to 'be all here', and 'live to the hilt'. I don't want to look back at this season in life and wish that I had enjoyed it more. I don't want to look back with regret.

 

 

 

 

For some people the countdown has begun.

Every time I talk with Rach she reminds me how many more days till her birthday. Because I'll get to celebrate with her!!!!!

Time. It's such a funny thing. At times moments and hours can feel like they will last for eternity, but days and weeks seem to fly by.

 

 

 

"Can we sing 'Running Over" cause that's the song that Princess sings funny, cause she says '...sooo sooo full!" Bob asked Sunday night, as we sat in a circle with friends. Every one laughed and then we proceeded to sing 'Running Over'.

Walking home that night...that's how I felt. So, so full. The breeze was cool and refreshing, almost cold. And the city was still awake, with buses and taxi's still working. Palm and Olive trees rustled in the wind, and the kids chased each other down the sidewalk.

Depending where your focus is, life can be dull, ordinary, and full of flaws. But there's also a flipside. Depending where your focus is, you can find excitement in the dull, joy in the ordinary, and beauty in the flaws. Because for everything I've had to give up, it's been replaced by something just as good...if not better.

The last week I've felt full. Sooo, sooo full. There is so much to enjoy and experience right now, if your willing to look for it. You can find joy in a crowded Shuk with people yelling out prices in Hebrew. The smell of spices and fresh pita bread. Walking through the city at night when it's all lit up, and a cool breeze plays with your skirt. Coffee Friday mornings with a good friend. Little kids learning the Alphabet for the first time. And running down three flights of stairs pain free!
This afternoon I went walking for the first time since arriving here. Not because I had a destination....just because I could! And it felt so good! I wanted to break into a run, but I decided I'd rather not damage the knee right away. Hopefully I can work up to that. If your determined to find joy in the ordinary....you probably will.